New Year. New Dead on Arrival!

Chapter 22: Unspeakable“What they’re doing here is….unspeakable.” -Lin Wu 

Chapter 23: The Undeserving“You’ll be doing me a favor and I don’t even deserve that.” -????

Coming early 2018!

So Merry Belated Xmas? (Unplanned update on me as well)

Furry dog elf anyone? 

I hope everyone had a terrific X-mas. I was not feeling like myself, so I just hung out and tried to enjoy the two games I did get. I only asked for two games from my fam since the computer was a gift too. They would have liked me to ask for more, but I just thought that would be asking for too much after what they did. I'm fine with my two games and my computer.

As for my two games, I got LA Noir and Gran Turismo. I haven't really played Gran Turismo much, but LA Noir is pretty fun. Getting the hang of it. Makes me miss Grand Theft Auto though. I so want to cause mayhem when I'm driving and running around in that game. I probably can do that...I think, but I'm a cop so I have to behave. lol

As for not feeling like myself. Just my stupid health issues. PMDD sh*t. Like I said I don't like talking about lady stuff here, but I recommend you read about it (the link especially) if you're a woman. It's not discussed enough imo. It's almost a freaking mental illness, so it needs to be.

I may be getting worse tbh. I cried for three days right before X-mas Eve. My face was literally hurting from crying and it was over stupid stuff. I can't even remember. Like it was one thing and then it morphed into another thing, which still made no sense. It was kind of scary. Had some scary thoughts too.

Soooo I probably need to get checked out again and have them give me something stronger. Something I've been trying to avoid for a year or two now. I don't like anti-depressants. I would rather not take them, but if they can keep me from screaming like a crazed banshee at my family and crying floods of tears over random crap I'll take it. The constant racing thoughts are also pretty horrible. Like I can't even sleep when I'm dealing with this now. I was wondering if this was holiday related though, but none of the crazy thoughts or stress was about that. I don't know, but a nice checkup after the New Years is always a good idea.

As for Roxie, she's fine. Struggling to get to her to lose weight. My family loves to feed her stuff, so it's like I have to train them too. It's also been really cold, so walks are limited now. Be glad when the summer is here. I need walks too. lol Other than that, she's going on 7 years old I believe. Still sweet and funny as ever. She's also a great therapy dog for me. 😊

*cough cough* I fed her cookies to get those pics, so I'm guilty too. *cough*

Other than that, I'm still kicking. I believe I got one more year in me sim wise. I kind of f'd up my game decrapping stuff, so I'm going have to fix that and redownload my store stuff legally. Ugh. I'll get to that when I finish updating Dead On Arrival since stuff may go missing then. I'm close to retiring from the Sims community though as much as I hate to admit it. Too many people are leaving. TS3 players specifically. Plus it just stressful to keep the game going sometimes. I just got my dream gaming computer, so I'm sure I'll play every so often. Just not as much. Hopefully, Sims 5 comes out next year and pulls me back in by that time. xD But for now you're stuck with me. Enjoy the essence of me while you can. 😏

MANLY MAN MODELLING - CYCLE 7 ~ Round 7 & Scores

Note: This comp is over and I had to drop out due to my old computer killing over. Just posting what I didn't get to post. 

This actually was the last entry I posted before my computer died. 😢

4th Place with 92/100

Round 7: Furs~ Spurs

MANLY MAN MODELLING - CYCLE 7 ~ Round 6 & Scores

Note: This comp is over and I had to drop out due to my old computer killing over. Just posting what I didn't get to post.

5th Place with 90/100

Round 6: Feathers~ Leathers

MANLY MAN MODELLING - CYCLE 7 ~ Round 5 & Scores

Note: This comp is over and I had to drop out due to my old computer killing over. Just posting what I didn't get to post.

4th Place (Tied) with 86.5/100

Round 5- Make A Splash

I'm baacccck. Duh. *points to tumblr* But yeah hi...

My new beast. HP Omen!!!! Also bought a kickass keyboard to match. All an early X-mas present basically. I wanted a Dell, but I was convinced to buy this. Cost less than the Alienware I was looking at too. This baby spits sims out like it's nothing. My game has never been smoother or faster. It's freaking amazing! I'm in love. 😍

I haven't even finished installing all my stuff, but I'm sure it can handle anything if it can handle sims.

Installing Sims didn't go too smoothly, unfortunately. I had to decrap a lot of store stuff and avoid Origin like the plague with the last patch, but I think I finally got it working like I want. It was a pain! Days of pain! I hate to open the launcher again. It's so f'ing buggy uninstalling shit. Ugh. Didn't realize how many eps Sims 3 had either till I had to reinstall all of them. Aghhhhh! Never again!

I reinstalled Pets too again. I'm nervous about the glitches and lag it may cause, but I think this computer can handle it. I cut off the stay option in population control, so that might help.

I did have to drop out of the one competition I was in. I was sad, but I think I need a break from the modeling anyway. Focusing on my story and just playing the game has been something I wanted to do for a while now. I'll get back into it I'm sure, but for now, it's time to chill, write, and keep simming. 😊

I do have some modeling photos and scores I haven't posted here. They're on my flickr, so I'll just steal them from there and post scores for those. Then it's going be legacy pics and story chapters from there.

And yesss I'm back playing my legacy. Woooo! The Edgars Vampire Legacy. I miss that fam. I have some pics of them already ready to post.

Hopefully, everything plays nice and l et's me enjoy the awesomness of my pc. 😁 I'm looking at you launcher and store stuff. 😒

Dead On Arrival~ Episode 21: BloodStained

Note: This has been copied directly from my tumblr. Finished this before my computer went up. Posted via phone.

Episode 21: BloodStained

“Noooo! Don’t! Wait!”

The gun went off without fail and the deafening sound rung in my ears. The barrel of the gun stood straight up between us as we both took hold of it while the bullet meant for Audrey flew straight up like a rocket through the roof.

So my computer finally died. Well the hard drive at least. On my phone...

So yeah my good ol Dell PC killed over the other night. The hard drive finally failed. My graphics card may have went up too. When I got it to boot up yesterday for the last time it glitched out with lines everywhere. Then I turned it off and started it again only to get the message above. So yeah it's pretty much over.  I could get it fixed, but it's too old and not worth it.

I did save everything. Everything I could. All my save files, Sims, and some cc. Also my Walking Dead Telltale Games. Only one I couldn't save was Wolf Among Us, so I gotta play that again. Meh. I need a refresher anyway for the long awaited sequel.

So no more Sims stuff for the time being. Not till I get a new PC, which will be sometime after Thanksgiving Thursday is over with around the 1st. Then I got reinstall everything, which makes me so happy (extreme sarcasm).

I'm honestly ashamed that I can't buy it myself or at least go half this time. I can't find a job no where and I'm a bit limited as to how far I can go with car issues at the moment. *sigh* My dad is buying me the PC for me though and my grandmother has offer to pitch in. Maybe one day I'll pay them back.

Anyway, I did finish a new chapter of DOA and posted it on tumblr right before things went south. What you will see will be a copy from my tumblr. Pics and all. I got it to look normal for here I think. I'm doing everything via my phone, so it's all I could to do for right now.

Hopefully, I'll be back soon to post more chapters. Kind of hoping I'm able to stay in the comp I'm in too, but I doubt it. We'll see. 😕

I'll be playing console games and writing for DOA in the meantime. I prewrite DOA on my phone anyway. Just going be slightly different since I won't have anything to visually inspire me Sims wise when I need it. I'll probably be lurking too even though my phone battery is still s**t, but I'll make it work.

So be I'll back with a less clutter and shiny new PC. Woooo! 😃

B/w if you have any desktop suggestions please drop me a comment. 😅

Dead On Arrival: Episode 20: The Plan (Poll included- Vote Now!)

Episode 20: The Plan

“The only clue you got was that the code is a birthday? How are we suppose to figure that out?” I asked frustrated as I faced my brother.

After our eye-opening night, we stood now outside in what they called the yard. A fenced off concrete area baking in the sun behind the building. It was simply a false sense of freedom I likened to recess, but it was more freedom than what we had inside. We could talk about plans and ideas here without the guards listening in. Not to say there weren’t guards around, but they seem more focused on the walkers outside the gate than us or any talk about codes.

Dead On Arrival: The Latest Promo Piccies

Forgot to post these here. Since I worked sorta hard on them I'm posting them here!

Episode 19: Heroes in Arms

Episode 20: The Plan

Check out the latest chapters of D.O.A. xD Chapter 20 will be my next post! Yes, I actually got something done on this PC.

My hard drive is about to self destruct in 1...2...3...

HD SELF MONITORING SYSTEM has reported that a parameter has exceeded its normal operating range. Dell recommends that you backup your data regularly. A parameter out of range may or may not indicate a potential hard drive problem. Press F2 to continue.

I'm getting that lovely message every time I turn on my dinosaur PC along with other errors when running diagnostics on it. I posted about it on tumblr, but I'm just posting this here just in case you missed it. I can get past this message via Esc right now and everything works ok then, but it was extremely slow to boot up today. So much so I thought it died.

I do still have my smart phone (which needs a battery) if it does stop working. I'm still very limited with just the smartphone tho, so I really hope I can get a new PC before this one quits on me.

I have thought about getting it fixed, but it's 8 years old if not older. It would be a waste of time and my father refuses. He's like "will you please just wait and get a new one." lol He's the same way with my phone, but I'm choosing a new pc over a new phone right now.

The PC I'm looking at is about $840. It's a dell like the one I'm using. Called XPS, but not the $1000 one. I don't have many games other than sims, so I don't need anything too fancy. Just something that equals the specs of this, but maybe a little better.

I'm going see if I can actually work on DOA while things are working. I did manage to make a new banner for this blog *points at top*. I'm not crazy about the pose I used for it. I just wanted something up while I could still run sims, so you may see something different later down the road.

It times like this I need a job badly tho. I quit Mcdonald after one awful day with awful people. Haven't had any luck since. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. Everything in the city retail wise is closing up. Malls are even dying. Going to start to look like a ghost town if they keep it up. A ghost town full of jobless people. Just what this city needs. I see why people to resort to crime. 😐

Starring Role: Finale Scores

1st Place

Vid and Demetrio Cruz with...

94/100 points - 47/50 average

Superhero Blockbuster

Batman is dead and the Justice League is nowhere to be found. Superman awakens from a kryptonite induced coma to find the streets of Gotham City and his beloved Metropolis a crime infested apocalypse. Can the man of steel save humanity before it's too late?

Biopic

Gotta have Faith: The George Michael Story

 Documenting his rise dealing with his first solo album to his fall and untimely death.

Red Carpet

Yes, I won! I wooonnnnn! 

MANLY MAN MODELLING - CYCLE 7 ~ Round 4 & Scores

1st Place (Tied) with 98/100

Round 4: Urban - Da Streetz

1st?! Wooo! *happy dances* I was pretty surprised by my placement this time. 😊

SHAPE SHIFTERS - CYCLE 1~ A3 & Scores

ColorMePink with Maxine Harley | Fox

1ST PLACE

A3- Deadly Sins

Greed

My best for this comp. Unfortunately I had to drop out. It's a great comp, but the ideas were not coming. I was lucky to come up with this. Sooo I went out on a high note.

MANLY MAN MODELLING - CYCLE 7 ~ Round 3 & Scores

4th Place (Tied) with 91.5/100

Round 3- Sports

I happily take 4th on this one.

Dead On Arrival: Episode 19: Heroes in Arms

Episode 19: Heroes in Arms

“Audrey! What are on you doing? Let’s get out of here!”

“I’m looking for something!”

I had already made quick work of scanning the area. I was kneeling down checking corpses when Vince had yelled out. I knew all too well he would disprove if I said what my search was exactly for. I just kept my head down checking corpse after corpse for weapons. My mind fully focus on the task as David watched while screaming his head off. Had I put too much thought into it I’m sure I would let my bitterness win leaving David to his demise, but I was better than that and he had done almost as much for me.

My search had seemed to be turning up nothing, but then I spotted him propped up against a tree motionless. A corpse dressed in fatigues. He wore a helmet and tactical gear. Gear that held weapons.

Dead On Arrival: Episode 18: Just Enough

Episode 18: Just Enough

“I’ve seen some things Doc. Mind if we have a talk?”

“Things? What do mean by ‘things’?” he said eyeing me suspiciously.

“The boy I came with. He’s dead. Is it customary here to shoot children in the head?"

"What? Where did you…? ”

He then furrowed his brow staring at something behind me, “Wait. That door is open…”

“Answer me,” I said quickly moving in front of the keypad and it’s glowing green light.

“Did you go in there?”

“Maybe, but you still haven’t answered my question. What the hell is going on here?!”

“This is terrible. Did anyone come with you? You mustn’t go in that room. You mustn’t! "You understand me? If they catch you in there…” he trailed off as footsteps echoed down the hall.

New banner in the works....

In case you're wondering why the under construction one is still up. I just haven't got to it. Don't judge me!!! 😅

MANLY MAN MODELLING - CYCLE 7 ~ Round 2 & Scores

1st Place with 98.5/100

Round 2- My Ride

Yeahhhhhh! 1st worthy hotness! *fans self*

SHAPE SHIFTERS - CYCLE 1~ A2 & Scores

ColorMePink with Maxine Harley | Fox

A1- Coffee spilt on your outfit

I got last place with this. Rightly so, but yikes. Luckily I wasn't eliminated.

MANLY MAN MODELLING - CYCLE 7 ~ Round 1 & Scores

Demetrio or Demetri, in this case, is back in a new modeling competition hosted by Ina. Starring Role is over. so I figured I give him a chance to model a little. Also changed his name back to Demetri since he's taking a break from acting. ;P

Simtech link and Officials link

7th Place with 87.5/100

Round 1 (Mock) -The Suit

I thought I would do a little better, but those are the breaks.

SHAPE SHIFTERS - CYCLE 1~ A1 & Scores

Joined another comp since Face Off got cancelled and Starring Role is pretty much done with. It's based on fashion and our chosen animals. I'm really not feeling confident about it since my brain keeps blanking on it, but I'm trying. Here's the link if you're interested in lurking since it's a really unique comp.

A1-Who Are You?

Fox

Face Off All Stars (Cycle 9)- A4 & A5 (No scores. It got cancelled.)

ASSIGNMENT 4: MYSTICAL

ASSIGNMENT 5: STEAMPUNK

It got cancelled.

Not a fan of A4 pic, but A5 was my jam. I finished it just as it was canceled. It was freaking hard and I even made a pose just for it. So yeah...*sobs*

Beech never cancels anything, so this is rare and I totally understand. Just suck ya know? Maybe next time.

Starring Role: A3 & Scores

Vid and Demetrio Cruz with...

126.5/100 points - 42.2/50 average

A3: Sci-fi

SPACEBOUND

On the next episode of SpaceBound, Bonnie and the crew are attacked by space pirates. Demetrio Cruz makes a cameo as one of the henchmen.

Dead On Arrival: Episode 17- What Remains (Poll Included- Vote now!)

Episode 17: What Remains

I watched it burn till sun rise. Till it was nothing more than a pile of rubble and flickering embers.

Thick smoke still darkened the sky, but something about the sun shining through gave me hope. Life even. Whenever I saw the sight of it in the sky and felt its comforting warmth I knew I had made it another day. I only wondered if my father had gazed upon the same sun rise. Had he made it another day? My uncle surely hadn’t, but his shelter had outlived him at least. I’m sure I would have waited forever there for my father to show up. The two of us would have had a good laugh about his crazy old fool of a brother being right over a meal, but that wouldn’t happen now. It was all gone. Everything.

Face Off All Stars (Cycle 9)- A3 & Scores

Top 3- 1st Place

Nicole by Vid

ASSIGNMENT 3: PINUP

Ye-haw! I got 1st!

Starring Role: A2 & Scores

1st Vid and Demetrio Cruz with...

139.5/150 points - 46.5/50 average

A2: Romance

ONE NIGHT LANCE

Starring Demetrio Cruz as Lance

Playboy bachelor, Lance is used to pulling off one-night stands and breaking hearts, but things change one morning when he's the one left waking up alone. So with only the memories of their steamy tryst and the place they met, Lance seeks out the woman who played him all the while finding himself thinking about her non-stop. Thus a game of cat and mouse begins. Can either be tamed long enough to fall in love?

In the scene, a night with his paramour leads to the tricky dance of who will wake up first. Lance looks in the mirror thinking he's finally won, but the woman has other plans.

Dead On Arrival: Episode 16: Nothing Left

Episode 16: Nothing Left

I faced Vince and our captors now. The fire still going steadily beside us. I tightened my grip on my weapon and prepared myself to fight, but Vince pleads had me rethinking my strategy.  "Audrey. Run. Go,“ he begged.

“No!” I shouted back without little thought.

An update on life currently....

Ok. A couple things have happened these past few months. My birthday happened and went as you know. I eventually got my Nintendo Switch in the mail a week later. My grandmother happened to be looking through the blinds when the UPS dude drove up. The dude literally just left it on the porch, so I'm glad she was looking out at the time. Would have been gone with my f**ed up neighbors.

Now I must say the Nintendo Switch is awesomesauce. I only got a few games, but the best game so far is Zelda: Breath of the Wild. It's a completely beautiful open world with so much to do. Never a boring moment. It's amazing! Plus it's nothing like the Zelda's of the past for me when it comes to saving and dungeons. Like it's the first Zelda game I'm truly content with. Yes, it's still freaking hard, but I love it. xD I also like Mario Kart a lot too and Arms is pretty cool. My only complaint about the Switch is the pricing of the games. $60 dollars for a game that's smaller than a DS cartridge should be a crime!!! That's too damn expensive for any game that's not a PC game. It's double the price of most games I own! I'm going need a job just to keep up. 

Haha, on that note I have a job. Well, I haven't started yet, but my job interview was Friday and manager dude called me up to tell me I was hired that same day. 😃 The job is not glamorous whatsoever. It's Mcdonalds, but it's a job. A job is a job, especially in these times. I believe my city was listed as one of the worse cities to find a job among other things, so I'm lucky to get anything. Especially with my job gap and lack of experience to boot. I was to suppose to receive orientation Monday, but it got moved to Wednesday. Hopefully, they teach me how to use the register come Wednesday, which is a big thing I MUST learn to move up and be able to be qualified for better jobs in the future. I really hope I can handle myself much better in this job. I'm a lot more mature than I was when I was working at Kmart and my meds for hormonal issue really help my anxiety, so I'm hoping this a positive experience for me. TBH, this is where I should have started off at. Oh well. I'm going make the best of this opportunity. 👍

As for anything else....Roxie is fine and almost 7 years old. My grandmother turned a year older and still her spunky lovable self. I got new pets. A bowl full of guppies and they had babies, so that's been interesting. I also have a new favorite show to add to the list. Preacher! I didn't get it at first, but I love me some Jesse, Cassidy, Tulip now.

This woman is my spirit animal.

On a more serious and simming note, I do feel my time amongst you simmers is dwindling. This year may be my last when it comes to the community. As time goes on I feel more and more detached from the community. Maybe it's age, maybe it's the atmosphere, the feeling, or maybe it's just time. I really don't know, but this has been a long time coming. Weirdly enough I do think I'll play sims from time to time still, but I won't be publically sharing any of that if I do. We'll see. The year is still young, so I may just be kidding myself.

DOA Katana Pose Pack

Decided to release these. Since things are slow lately I figured I could post it here and archive it later on my actual cc blog. Nobody will probably use these, but at least they're available just in case. We need more storytelling poses imo.

Face Off All Stars (Cycle 9)- A2 & Scores

Top 3- 1st Place

Nicole by Vid

ASSIGNMENT 2: DARKNESS CONSUMES

I really can't believe I got 1st. Really. lol 

Starring Role: A1 & Scores

1st Vid and Demetrio Cruz

94.5/100 points - 47.25/50 average

A1: Crime Drama

Infamous: Crimes of the Rich and Famous

Starring Demetrio Cruz & Terrance Knight

By the book, Detective Carter (played by Cruz) gets transferred to the swanky city of Los Angeles where he's partnered up with TJ (played by Knight). A flashy uncovered cop with an eye for fame and a habit of recklessness. In the pilot, the two set aside their differences and team up to solve the case of a murdered movie producer at a posh estate. There they meet a cast of suspects fit for a soap opera. The producer's famous actress wife, Beverly Vance, the Butler, and the wife's pool boy lover, but only one seems to fit the bill. Will evidence prove the pool boy's innocence? Did the butler do it? Or do we have a Hollywood scandal brewing with Beverly Vance as the star suspect? No matter the case, Carter will seek justice amongst the glitz and glam. Find out on the pilot episode, "In The Deep End."

Face Off All Stars (Cycle 9)- A1 & Scores

No this isn't some lost assignment from last cycle or Deja Vu. I got back on the horse and joined Face Off again and since it was All-Stars I thought it would be more appropriate to use Nicole again. She wants her crown dammit!!!! I also blame Beech for forcefully reserving me. xD

Top 3- 2nd Place

Nicole by Vid

ASSIGNMENT 1: METAL

All the assignments will be callbacks from previous cycles so you may see some familiar themes. This photo here is actually a lot like I wanted for A2 of last cycle minus the crystals. I'm pretty proud of it. 😊

Fun Fact about the Nintendo Swtich

You can't find them in stores. They have to be ordered. They're that popular. So I got to freaking wait for them to deliver it.

So my gift was an order receipt.😝 Super expensive too I must say. Oh well. I think I'm just tired of being upset, so I'm not upset. Kind of funny. I kept wondering why my dad and grandmother were stalling. Well I got cake and ice cream. Got a nice sugar high going at least. 😵

Happy Birthday to me again! 28....

I'm 28 now....

Literally my face right now. 

Ahaha I'm almost 30....30...

I'm kidding, but eh. I shall cherish these last two years of 20ness. In the meantime, bed. I just wanted to post something in case I was occupied with celebrating or playing my new Nintendo Switch that hopefully appears. Have a good July 12th on me all!