I'm going try not to make it any more worse than it is. I would like state what happen so if any rumors going about may die. This only my side of the story and not going say that you only she listen to me, becuase that wouldn't be right to Kelle. I don't know what you will think of me after this, but ask that you remain respectful.
It was silly argument over TMN that should have never happened. It started in a chat box on one of the forums I go too. I was happy about being to say to "I told you so" about whole Erick thing and well I thought the drama was over. I come on to chat and she is really upset about Mare post on her. I told her is wasn't big deal and that I was sorry it happened. Well she told me she was going blog about them attacking her. I told her to ignore TMN post about her, that wasn't worth being upset about. It was only one post. I also told her that you attacked them so what did you expect. That was me being brutally honest, but it was harsh. I was simply saying that once you blog negatively about Mare, it open season for them. That's how they are. They are almost always harsh.
I apologize for hurting her feelings though. I felt bad. She said I was taking their side. I told her it will blow over and it's just a gossip site. Who cares what they think. No, I didn't think she should respond back to them. Why? I didn't want her to get flamed again to be honest. I don't like when Mare post about my friends, but I learnt to sometime skim pass those post sometime and hope the next post is positive. Well I left to clear my head, but went back immediately to pm her. I said, not misquote myself:
First off I'm sorry for hurting your feelings and I want to be straight with u. I never address the issue I had with you being friends Erick and it is why I'm having problems with sticking up for u. You never sticked up for me when Erick was attacking me, so I thought why should stick up for you with Mare.You points fingers at Mare, but not at Erick when it was obvious he was starting stuff. Well told me two wrongs don't make a right, that we shouldnt let Mare or Erick ruined a friendship. I totally agree.
I can never hate Mare though, because they just a gossip site that doesnt know anyone personally. I don't know them either. If you are really a good person it will show and you are good person! I think they will see this in time. I respect your opinions of Mare. I'm certainly not asking to love them either, becuz they do cause some stuff too. That is only 1 negative post. They have been known change opinion about someone. Clover was hated and now they love her for now (you know how she is). I can't see them not changing their mind about you so keep that in mind.
I'm not going blog about them though, becuz it will just make things worse. People act like I can sway them to think different when I don't even know why I'm liked by them. I can make a post about them being harsh, but people will say I'm just as harsh. I am at times, so I have no right to tell them anything.
If you want make post replying back to them, then go ahead, but as _said two wrongs don't make a right. More drama will come. I'm holding back tears, because I never wanted to hurt you and never wanted any of this. My birthday is Monday, but feel like crap because I don't know what do. I'm sorry. I really am. I wish you never made that post or made friends with Erick. I wish Mare had never seen that post. I wish they had ignored it. I can wish all I want though, whats done is done. Take care this weekend. I'm taking a break. Pm me back though. I'm sorry for all of this. Talk to u soon!
I was still feeling overwhelmed, drained and very upset at this time. I don't know what else I could say to her. I keep feeling like I could of said more. Well I didn't get her pm back to me and thought she was ignoring me. I made a post (the one called I can not leave without a explanation), because I hoping she would read it and I didn't leave without giving my readers a explanation. I made sure to tell TMN in that post to not attack anyone for it. They message me they wouldn't be replying back to Kelle's reply post anyway or mentioning this. I guess they read how hurt I was and granted me this wish. After getting word I didn't receive her pm, she pm'd me back.
Well she told me she couldn't deal with the drama with me, had too much on her plate already, and that obviously valued TMN over our friendship. That we could still talk, but she will no longer consider me her friend.
Well I did't thinks she should have made such a final decision so soon and I was extremely upset. It being near my birthday didn't help either. If anything I wish she had waited till Tuesday, but things happen. I wanted things to go back like it was. If she never wanted me to talk about The Mare Nest with her again, I would granted her that wish. Anything, but this. Well TMN does support me and I wasn't going turn on them. People keep saying they will turn on me and I want to find that out myself. I can't bad mouth them and I'm not going too. I still don't understand what she wanted from me, why she put this all on me as if I was responsible for the Mares' post. I wish everyone would stop reading the Mare if upsets them, because this could of been avoided. I'm not sure if this was real reason she didn't want be my friend and it doesn't matter now. I'm done and I'm tired. I put up with Erick for her and she couldn't put up with me liking a gossip site. I told her I was fine with them being friends despite my feelings. She was very aware how I felt about him. I said I couldn't turn on the Mare Nest, that I only ask she respect what I think of them and she told me she couldn't deal with me anymore. I don't think it was very fair to me and I'm sorry it came to that.
It ended up on Mare, because it wasn't secret to anyone this was happening. Word carries fast and much as everyone try keep names out of it, it became what it was. I knew it would eventually. Anyway I have nothing to do what Mare posted, but of course it will be my fault.
I will not discuss this anymore and anyone who wants flame me for this post are wasting their time. I will not be answering you and I don't care what anyone thinks about me anymore. I will be staying low. Posting on the ts3 forum, my blog and chatting on my chat box. My real friends know where to find me for any other chat boxes. I will post about the ts3 forum and will be trying to stay out of the drama. All I ask is to respect my opinion of TMN and to know I have feelings. I'm still upset. I don't know how you will take this post, but I felt like I should say something. I also will ask of you to please unfollow me if you dislike me and please be upfront with me.
Thank you to all my friends who stuck by me. I'm sorry this ever happen! I truly am!
P.S. I'm fixing the typos as we speak...er type.