July 12th is my birthday. I'm never thrilled about my birthday and i'm still not thrilled, but it's coming no matter what I do so I might as well talk about it. Serioulsy I don't like birthdays anymore because the older I get the less time I get with little family I have left. My mother passed when I was 12 and grandfather passed this year. I don't have siblings so I feel like I will be alone soon or later. Really depressing.
Well I'm trying to stop thinking like that so what am I doing on my birthday? I want ice cream cake and first drink because I'm turning 21. I don't want anything and if could stay in the house I would, but my father will drag me somewhere. If my uncle doesn't forget or skip out on it like he did one year (still pretty piss about that) we might go to the mini goft place he found. My grandmother saids it's far though and we both hate long car rides. If turns out to bore or something goes worng I will just die. I've had some horrible birthdays. All I want is some money and drink for goodness sakes! Hmmm...I sound like drunk already. xD Nah, if get my ice cream cake and some money I will be just fine. :-P