Sooo yeah that whole school thing is tomorrow aka Tuesday. 0_o It's just the 1 class though luckily.
Not freaking out as much I was. I'm actually calm with a pinch nervousness and loads of excitement. Every so often I feel like scared out of my mind, but I'm trying not to think too deeply about it.
I spent part the weekend trying to decode my schedule. I literally had to decode the thing, because it was not easy to read! FFS can they spell out days and not give them special letters? For two days I thought TR meant just Thursday. The T actually means Tuesday and the R is Thursday. I would of missed my first day if I hadn't been reading it over the other night. That would of been slightly embarrassing, which is is the last thing I need. I already feel like a idiot for calling up and asking.
Then the other part of my weekend was devoted to clothes. My wardrobe needed a upgrade and I still need long sleeve shirts for the cold weather. I'm freaking out about my outfit, but I have some what of a idea of what to wear. I'm going wear a cute t-shirt over a long sleeve shirt. The T-shirt has a funny saying with pandas. It said's "If you're happy and you know it, slap your friend." It's quite amusing and perfect for laughs. I'm entirely happy with long sleeve shirt as it's the sleeve have stripes. I think I'll have a look at it first, before committing to it.
Then with it being only 1 class tomorrow, I'm not too worried about the work load. This whole week will probably consist of what to expect doing this year. Not too worried about that. Looking forward to getting started actually. I have book bag and paper just in case we do have work though. The book bag is greyish black with a flowery lace pattern. It's quite unique. I hate plain anything. lol
Then the social factor is my biggest fear. I have major social anxiety. I tense up and go blank most the time when I'm in a class type setting. I just suck at starting and continuing conversations. Then I just can't help, but screw up and embarrass myself! Agh! I'm going try very hard to be myself and just laugh whenever I do something dumb. I'm starting off with a clean slate, so I'm going use it to really be myself. They can either love me or hate me. I refuse to be quiet and anti-social at 23! Been there, done that. I'm just going go for it! I'm ok with being a dork and goof ball now. lol
And now it's 12am. My classes are in the afternoon so no worries about me being a total zombie in the morning. I will probably spend most the night wide awake with nerves anyway. >_< Wish me luck!!!!
P.S. My next post will probably be about the first day I guess. Bed time.