Not a happy post, but I'll try to make it a little less gloomy than what I had typed up in my head.
First off, Roxie (my dog) will need surgery for ACL/tore ligament. She is schedule to go next Tuesday and it will be roughly 1200 dollars (depending on weight and size). She's going be there overnight for a day and she's going come home with a cast. On the bright side, I'm hoping it's the white one you can draw on it. :P I just hope everything goes well.
As for me, I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I'm tired all the time/exhausted, emotionally numb some days, and I'm having hard time concentrating on my work/studies. Then I'm clenching my teeth from what I believe is stress? Either that or anxiety, or a panic attack. I've been going through different variations of this for a week or two and mentioning it to my family is a bit of a waste. I either get "get over it," "relax," "you're too old to be this upset," "you're probably just tired" or they ignored me. I think that may be why I'm bit numb. I know they mean well, but I can't relax and school won't let me. Heck life won't let me!
Well some days I'm fine and coming online makes me completely forget about my worries. Playing Seasons has become a complete escape, but my 12 week classes are coming to a close soon. The pressure is stressing me out to the point I can't concentrate and I feel physically sick. I don't even know if have the drive or want to be journalist/writer anymore. It's seems silly now. Maybe it's just doubt, but I'm really beginning to feel really lost as what do in life. I feel like I'm going through the motions and doing what other people want me to do or what they expect of me. I am just as lost as I was before. :/
*sigh* Well enough of that. I refuse to go any deeper or write a novel. Maybe things will get better. Going try to keep sim related and less about RL at the moment. Will hopefully have a happy update on Roxie if anything.