Took Roxie to the vet. Old gurl still kicking but with issues

Roxie is doing ok. Like I said, she's 14 years old now so she's old. We took her to the vet. Her new vet. Going into the city from my new place to her old vet was a chore. Then the nice vet lady we had left just before we moved and was replaced with some old dude who pretty much rushed through her appointment and pissed me off when he cut me off mid-sentence to rush to his next appt. He also kept calling her a boy. >_> The receptionist also had a bit of attitude. He was new as well. I saw him literally snap at a man who just lost his dog because he was in the middle of waiting on me. I would've happily waited. Like geez. Empathy is lacking nowadays. So yeah I found somewhere near my new place and the new vet is just amazing. Checked her over thoroughly and called me personally to give me the results of her bloodwork. Told me to call him if she got worse or anything. Very nice and professional. Also very nice staff. 

Ok, so in not-so-great news. Roxie has a number of issues. She has a heart murmur and is now on heart medication. She also has some kidney disease going on and a possible mass on her spleen. I honestly thought I was going to have to call him and put her down, but she's doing better so far. She's a bit more active and she's eating better since introducing soft food back into her diet. Helps with chewing as she has bad teeth. Just trying to get some weight back on her and keep her going. As for the missing fur I mentioned before, that was allergies. I'm going to make her another appointment as he wants to see her in two weeks. If her blood work numbers go down, then things should be better according to the new vet. We'll see. I'm on pins and needles every day because I just worry she might not wake up or she might have a medical emergency. She's on borrowed time but hopefully, we can get a few more years out of her.

Pic of her in the new place b/w. Taken around Thanksgiving after being groomed by her new groomer:

P.S. She must have known I was talking about her. She came into my room and rolled around. Now she's on my lap. 😂😅

Got some good luck. My Switch remotes and free stuff!

I drowned my dead Switch remotes in rubbing alcohol and one lit up. Then I charged the other one and boom they're back. Only got one remote/joycon that has issues. Still, I saved myself 80 bucks. I might still buy a backup pair but maybe after X-mas. I almost threw them away tho. OMG!

Then my dad found a package on our porch. Was for the wrong address. He left it there for hours at first. Then he went back out for it and ask me what he should do. He was thinking about throwing it out, but I told him to bring it in. Now I googled if you can keep a package or delivery if mistakenly delivered to your address and basically yep you can. Like Doordash mistakenly delivered food here once recently. Me and grandmother ate it. It was cold, but it was free.😁 So he leaves out and I open it up. I'm expecting something I can't use like diapers or something weird. I look and it's a Nike box. Then I open it up and it's men's sneakers. So I hid them and waited for my dad to come back. Then I showed him and he was so happy! He put them on and they fit perfectly. The crazy thing is, he needed shoes. His old favorite tennis were soaked from the flood and looked worse for wear after he washed them. So it's like some sort of divine intervention. Those shoes usually go about 200 bucks too and he got them for free!!! He's been so happy wearing them. I sort of feel bad for whoever ordered them but hopefully, they can get a replacement pair or their money back. Still pretty awesome! Now if only the delivery people would mess up and leave a PS5 on the porch. 😂😏

Also, my grandmother is doing better. They talking about her doing rehabilitation for walking and getting her strength back. Got the call a few hours ago about it. She's doing a lot better considering it's been only a week (feels like it's been months). She's come a long way. I'm going to hold it down till she comes home. She's a strong woman. I'm always telling her she's a gangsta. She really is badass! 😀 

Now I'll admit I was furious before typing this post because my Uncle C truly pissed me off and I got into a huge argument with him but now I'm good. My dad got my grandmother to say hi to me on the phone and she said "My [insert real name]." So yeah I'm going to melt into a puddle of tears now. I needed to hear that. Couldn't visit today but I, sure enough, going to visit tomorrow if I can.

My grandmother is in the hospital now. Things have been awful.

I feel like I've ran out of tears. I don't even feel like writing this. I don't know if I'll write everything but it's a lot. These past two days have been horrendous.

I'm shook. Literally. Here's an earth quaking update on life and my lack of post

 We just had an earthquake here. A small one, but it sounded like an explosion and I, unfortunately, I was reading about the tragic condo collapse at the time. So yeah it pretty much scared the shit out of me.

Anyway, I'm fine. I've been under a lot of stress lately. So much stress I had trouble sleeping, I was grinding my teeth, and in just a constant state of anxiety. I ended up contacting my doctor and requesting an appointment with a therapist/counselor. It's been a long time coming tbh. I should have asked for one a while ago. I've gone through a lot of trauma and PMDD doesn't help. With my mom dying before I was 10, traumatizing school bullying, everything that went on with my grandfather after graduating high school, and my PMDD diagnosis, I'm surprised I'm still here. My grandmother has been my rock through it all, but one day she won't be here. My dad is great and does his best, but they're some things he will never understand. So I'm doing this for my mental health and for the future as things will get harder from here.

My stress level has also been heightened by the sudden appearance of family from my mom's side. I haven't seen them since I was 9? So 20+ years?! I tried to give it a chance, but they insist on bringing up the past and hinting at some dark secret that's probably a big ol' fat lie. They hate my dad, so I'm assuming it's about my dad and frankly, I don't want to hear about it. I'm not a tool or weapon for revenge and if that's what they plan on using me for, they can fuck off. I've had enough drama and pain in my life. Their sudden appearance alone has me all messed up in the head because it brought back memories of my mom I had long buried. I'm also sick of them saying they did everything to find me when they knew damn well I didn't go anywhere, but down the street. Like I'm some lost child. I won't say anymore, but it's upsetting.

Not much has happened other than that. Roxie is fine. My grandmother and my dad are fine. I've been to a few interviews, but I'm still unemployed. I haven't given up, but I'm tired on so many levels. Hopefully, things improve soon. Hopefully, my interview skills improve too. I suck at interviews. 

On a bright note, I'm looking forward to writing more and posting more. Let's see how that goes. 

Last known pic of the fuzzy Sasquatch that is Roxie

She was capture in her natural habitat 20 mins ago in her bed. 😂

Been a while since I posted her picture here. She turned 12 in February. They grow up so fast. She still a puppy to me though. 😭💓

Post Birthday- Mission Birthday A success!

Well, it wasn't entirely perfect but I ended the day happy and content. Sometimes my birthday doesn't always end that way. I've had some crappy ones and some boring ones. Getting older sucks sometimes.😓 Anyway, I ended up getting Animal Crossing for Switch, money for Mortal Kombat DLC, money for Pokemon Sword DLC, and a delicious marble birthday cake (my grandmother thought it was yellow, so it was a yummy surprise). I would have liked to dress up and go out to eat, but Corona ani't allowing it. Hopefully, my next birthday I can go without a mask and come home virus free with the fam. TBH, I was wondering if I was even going to get anything for a gift. Money has been tight since the pandemic started. I'm quite grateful to my grandmother and dad for making my day special despite the circumstances. I love them both so much. 😭💗

But I'm totally cheating on Sims with AC right now. See you next month.

Ok. Ok. Kidding! 😜

P.S. I've been working on sim stuff, so more sim stuff related soonish. 

It's my Birthday! 31! Happy Birthday to me!

As soon as it hit 12am, we broke out the little wine we had left. 😂

Probably stay in and play my gifts tho. 😉😷

Try New Blogger? Um...

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It was hellish. Especially when you want to upload a bunch of pictures and insert them into a post. I don't recommend it.

Black Lives Matter. Why? Let me explain. Plz hear me out.

I don't like talking about politics on this blog or simblr too much, but being that I am a black woman, an African woman, I'll speak on it.

Wolf Among Us 2 no longer cancelled. It's real and it's back! AHHHHHH!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0MtQCvRFIWM

I thought I was hallucinating, but it's real. Announced at the game awards. I'm going just sit here in the corner and cry myself silly from sheer joy. 

It's like a Christmas gift from the gaming gods. 👐😭

Does that mean TellTale is back too from the dead? I don't know, but this made my night. The stupid grin on my face can't be wiped off right now. 😃

I still got it! I got a 90 on my research paper!

I know I posted this on tumblr and almost no one gave a fudge (as usual), but I'm going post it here, because it's too awesome not to. It's worth posting a 1000x! I did it!

I'm pretty sure I will never stop talking about it. It's been like a decade since I wrote a paper and I got no help whatsoever, so holy crap! You don't know how happy it made me. I've been in a state of shock for a week now. It makes me want to cry. 😭

Then I called up the school with some questions about my proctored exam and he told me I'm doing really well. He was like you have a 90 average! Well, for now, but 😭

Now if I pass my proctored exam for biology, I may faint and awake sobbing in tears of joy.

I love this dog!

😍💕🤗

Pics of this shaggy stuff animal on my lap yesterday. 😘

*crawls back to blog* MIA due to unexpected circumstances

Had summer cold. Maybe a sinus infection or respiratory infection to be specific. Still not 100%, but I got things to do man! Ugh!

Just before falling ill, I got a new game and a book. The game is a detective game and you know I like those. The book is Queen of the Dammed, which I never finished. I've been entertaining myself with both as I recover. Thank gawd too, because I would've been miserable and bored as hell. I also got some new tennis shoes and a pretty awesome outfit. All of that were gifts for my birthday.😄

By the way, it's been 100+ degree here. I would have probably been hiding anyway. Temps like that make me miss winter.

Ok, so I'm going slowly start posting again. Along as I'm not feeling too bad.

P.S. I've heard nothing from the vet clinic I interviewed at. I sent two emails and got no response, so I'm pretty sure I don't have the job. *shrugs* 

It's my birthday! I'm 30 now.

No one is off today as it's Friday, so I might just chill. 

But yeah I'm officially 30.

As I said, this year needs to end. Ugh, it just gets better and better... (sarcasm)

I gotta admit my Christmas was not great. I didn't get everything I wanted, because literally everything I wanted was sold out. Then my dad was sick. Even my gamer Uncle J (the least annoying one) was sick. So I ended up playing Smash Bros. alone all day and feeling lonely.

Then came the next day and I became sick. I spent half the day vomiting, hunched over in pain in my stomach, pain in my joints, and chills. I thought I had another kidney stone for a min, but the vomiting part was something new. Then I went to bed with a low-grade fever. I was able to sleep unlike last time thank God, but it was awful. I almost went back to the ER, but my arms are still healing from all the needles they poked me with from last time.

Anyway, then a disgusting porn Tumblr decided to reblog my selfies tagging it with things like "anal s**" and "teen porn". It gave me an anxiety attack from the sheer horror of it tbh. I'm officially done with Tumblr. Maybe deleting it real soon. As soon as they get off their butts and delete that blog off of mobile Tumblr anyways. It's kind of a wake-up call for me. Won't be posting any more selfies to public platforms and especially to Tumblr.

So now I'm sitting here with a semi-headache, but a lot better than I was. I finally just ate a plate of food. The other day after Christmas when I was most sick, my diet consisted of a peanut butter jelly sandwich and a dinner roll. Both I had to force down my throat.

So I'm going to sleep now. Just wanted to pop in to say "I'm sick again" and make sure Tumblr is actually doing their job in cleaning up the mess they created with the porn crap. New guidelines my ass!!!

Yep. Want this year to be over with. lol

In the span of 24 hours, I've gotten in a fight with a family member, I did pretty bad on my final exam and had to refer to my text for the retake to pass (despite studying my ass off), and I think I passed my kidney stone. I actually don't know. I just know I'm not in pain anymore, so that's a plus.

I'm going to sleep. Wake me up when it's X-mas. I would say New Year, but I want to play Smash Bros. Ultimate. 😋

I deleted a post in regards to my family drama tho because we're actually pretty boring people and I can't help, but think we sound like a bunch of crazies. I was really emotional too. I also don't want to devote any more post to a 60-year-old fart who think it's ok to threaten and get in the face of a 29-year-old girl. He hasn't even apologized and refuses to acknowledge he said anything in regards to my eating habits or weight. So we don't talk anymore and I like it that way! He is the most annoying person in Maryland, so his silence is bliss. As for who he is, he is an uncle. Great uncle isn't he?

Now that I'm done my final exam, I'm going build a freaking house and post sim related stuff.

P.S. I think I studied all the wrong stuff as usual, so that's why. Really frustrating.

Should be in bed. Posting my ER adventure here...

Copy and pasted from Tumblr (which I wrote on my phone this morning), because I can't be bothered to rewrite this any different. I shouldn't even be on here tbh. Sorta in pain right now, but I'm bored.

So I spent the night in the emergency room…

From 10pm at night to 6am this morning (Dec. 14-15). I was in pain the whole day yesterday (Friday) with pain on my right side. Felt like someone was burying their fist in my side. Not normal lady cramps. Aleve didn’t even work. That and other things that had me in the bathroom in pain. Plus some chills. So after trying to be a badass, I finally broke down and laid in a pool of tears curled up in a ball unable to sleep or eat or get comfortable. Just constant pain.

So I was off to the ER. I didn’t have to wait too long to get seen luckily on a Friday night. Felt like a long time though. They put me in a room and laid in a bed for a min. Then they came around and made me a pin cushion trying to find a vein as I was dehydrated. Ended up with 2 holes on each arm with a bonus as the needle pro of the ER tried and got it in almost the same place as the first hole. Then I waited some more and then they rolled me down to X-rays where they gave me a CAT scan. I never saw one in rl. xD It sorta weird. Especially the stuff they put in your IV for the x-ray. Made me feel like I peed myself and all my limbs got warm. 😅

Anyway, I ended up back in the room slightly curled up watching CNN till I got bored and changed to Ice Age 2. Obamacare got struck down? Whaaat?

So after making me wait an eternity, they finally came in and gave me a diagnosis. The lucky illnesses that were on the table were appendicitis, UTI, and or just a really bad period mind you, but I had none of the above.

I have a freaking Kidney Stone!

It’s tiny, but it still fucking sucks becuz it’s moving around being a bitch causing me pain.

So to recap I'm having my usual lady probz, getting over a cold, and now I have a kidney stone. Fun! I’m so lucky. 😒

P.S. I am lucky it wasn’t my appendix tho.

Vet Tech Studying and Ear infections. RL currently.

Do you know how to pronounce pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis? I do. I just learned how to. It's a disease caused by breathing in volcanic dust. It's one of the longest words recorded or something like that. It was in my vet tech terminology study guide. I probably will never use it, but they broke it down so I could understand the different parts of the medical terminology I'll be using. This is probably the hardest part so far, but I've made flashcards. Hopefully, it sticks to my brain soon. Hate to alter my exam schedule.

Anywhoo, I'm not here to blather about my studies to you. Just here to update you on everything going on in rl for me. As you can tell I'm really happy and dedicated to my veterinarian technician program. I've only failed one exam so far, but I retook it and got a 95. My exam grades so far range from 100 to the 80s. I haven't cheated or peeked in my textbook. The exams are open book mind you, but it's stupid to rely on that when you really do need to memorize this stuff. Won't have any text when I take my proctor exams that's for sure. I actually enjoy it though. I like ran out of flash cards this evening and I'm actually pretty annoyed I can't finish writing down the terms I need to study. I spend a lot of time studying. Especially around this time when everyone is sleep. xD

RIP Stan Lee

Thanks for making up a big part of my childhood and adulthood.

Officially a college student now...again.

Vet tech baby!

So far math is a b*** and I'm learning how to navigate the site. I'm doing this all via online, so I don't even have to leave the house until I get to the externship part.

Anyway, I've been studying math all day. Kill me.